N is for New


1. not existing before; made, introduced, or discovered recently or now for the first time.
2. already existing but seen, experienced, or acquired recently or now for the first time.

I stayed with the bookstore for a few years and then an opportunity arose. Through the LGBTQI group I went to, I had made a solid group of friends and one of them asked me for help. Among them, I often felt I was less educated and accomplished so this was rather notable for me.

Jori was a trainer. She worked with a  grant program that went into various businesses, set-up needed classes and supplied the trainers to teach them. She was teaching a class to social workers and nurses at Youth Consultation Services about how to deal with confrontation and conflict, both with their professional peers and their wards. She wasn’t getting through to them, her stories weren’t working, and she asked if I’d be willing to try. She believed my perspective would be more useful.


I did. I taught one class. Then I taught a few more and I was good at it. I left the bookstore and started working for the grant program. I worked weird hours for a woman (NOT Jori) that is easily one of the most insane people I have ever encountered, I cried regularly working for her but I was doing something, something I was proud of and I was doing well at it.

I was proud to tell the Maine family that I had a “respectable” job and was doing good. I was proud of my friendships. I had a friend that was willing to put me forward in her professional life and trust I would do well by her.

Jori is one of the most narcissistic people I know, she is also one of the most selfless, and somehow that duality works for her. If you were to ask her, or even mention some slight inkling of interest, she would tell you that all of my professional achievements and some of my personal ones as well, could be linked back to her, if not  completely due to her influence and farsightedness. I wish this was an exaggeration but it’s not; and the truth is, she was the one that gave me a shot at finding out I was a worth a little more than I thought.

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2 thoughts on “N is for New

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